My 2021 Crypto Story

(33f) In 2021 I made 250k off of dogecoin, as well as some on shib, gme and amc. I put in $6k. Right when they hit highs, I experienced a high of my own. I had my first ever, serious manic episode. It lasted for 6 months.

I had never experienced a manic episode before and it was essentially like being blacked out while simultaneously thinking I was invincible… among other things. Nobody around me knew what was happening and neither did I. I was absolutely insane. Posting on social media, gaining over 20k simply bc of the crazy shit I was doing.

Where did that money go you ask? This is painful…

You’d think I would have gotten some nice things. Jewelry, bags, clothes, shoes. Nope.

$5,000 on art supplies and toys to donate to kid’s schools (they never got donated). Toys were also left on the stoops of apartments in Brooklyn bc I thought I was Santa clause. I handed out Barbies to little girls on the street.

$12,000 up front for 6 months of rent

$3,000 – I bought every single food item, bottled drink, Starbucks cups, bags etc in my neighborhood Starbucks. I also left this stuff on the stoops of multiple apartments.

$3,000 for 11 tattoos on my left arm that I would have otherwise NEVER GOTTEN. Probably one of my biggest regrets out of everything. Just chop off my arm please. I was never a tattoo person. Guess I am now.

$7,000 on mushrooms, weed and ketamine

$2,000 on new phones? I gave one away.

$2,000 divided up and passed out to people on the streets

$800 adoption fee for a dog I later had to give up

$3,000 on ez pass. Why? I have no fcking idea.

$1,500 on crystals

$2,000 on tye dye clothes that I’ll never wear again

$4,000 on new furniture that I ended up putting on the side of the street.

Honestly, there were so many things. A lot I can’t remember and I’ve been too horrified to look at bank statements, pictures and videos. Blacked out from mania and shrooms/ket. But the biggest?

I spent THOUUUUSANDS on touring with Dead and co for 2 months. I went to 12 shows and I was front row for each one. I also thought John Mayer would fall in love with me if I did so. Pit tickets, flights and hotels all over the country…

Oh and I forgot to mention that I also found my way on to a couple of well-known reality shows (not main cast) due to how insane I was acting. Some of my friends at that time were main cast; I can’t say which because that’s way too specific and I’m already giving up too much detail in this post 😂🙈. Let’s just say I don’t think we’re friends anymore…

I eventually lost my job, my apartment, my car, my reputation, family and friends. But what did I gain? 38k left over in tax debt after being audited (that’s after paying what I thought I owed). I did MY OWN taxes while manic too. WTF?

The irs owns my ass and now I’m on a payment plan.

My family put me in the hospital for a month, I was diagnosed with bipolar and placed (hopefully temporarily) on disability. Now I’m back living w mom and dad at 33. I had an amazing job and life in nyc for 10 years — it all crumbled.

So, I’ve been hiding since. Haven’t touched social and I’ve deleted most of my insta feed. Deleted Facebook. I worked in pr and a lot of my job was social, and now I’ve disappeared 🤷🏻‍♀️

I’m pretty sure people think I stalk John Mayer after posting him 14836x at so many shows front row. High school friends, college friends, work friends, family… they’ve all distanced themselves and I’ve lost almost everyone aside from a few who I am SO grateful for. The tea was HOT that year, and being the talk of your hometown is never good.

Like I said there’s a lot more to it. But you know what? In 2022 when I got out of the hospital, I took the $4000 I had left and bought more.

And I’m not fucking selling.

Wow that was cathartic. Anyway, love you. Do only good everyday ♥️🐶