The lowest point of my life

Hi everyone, I’ve been contemplating and wrote and deleted this post multiple times and been worried about how people may perceive such post considering its Reddit. But I have been part of this sub for years and have been lurking a lot more years. I have shared happy moments of my life (the time I sold all my moons and took my daughter to Legoland) to sad moments (when I was recovering from my addiction) I am not alone, but I feel lonely. I don’t want to talk to my friends and family as they have specific questions which are doing the opposite rather than helping and draining emotionally. There’s something about being anonymous here on Reddit and feeling comfortable to share true emotions and feelings.

2 weeks ago, my 4 year old daughter was diagnosed with leukemia and is currently undergoing chemotherapy, she is handling it well and is stable but I cannot describe how terrified I am. She has given me every reason in life to achieve things, work hard, and inspires me to keep going even right now. There are moments when I feel so lost and in denial I don’t even know what to do myself, I have started writing diary every day as a cooping mechanism and perhaps this post is one of those too.

I’m not exactly in a state to be lecturing you guys nor giving you advises but all I can say is, cherish the moments you have with your family, friends and loved ones. Cherish the time you have around people who love you, everything else is secondary. If you’ve made this far reading this, call your parents, tell them how much you love them, give a strong hug to your kid(s) and tell them how they are the best thing that has ever happened to you, tell your partner how lucky you feel to have them by your side.You get the point…

I believe in her, she’s a strong kid and I’m gonna do my best to stay positive and once she makes a full recovery I will have a happy post to share with you all.

Piece and love.